PYRAMID OF GIZA
Another 7 people in the bus, plus the driver, H…., B… and me.
H…. told us we would have 15 minutes to take photos and walk by the pyramid. I let him know, under no uncertain terms that I wanted, expected and had to, go inside.
Was given conciliatory words, soothing noises and a faint promise that he would try to take us inside. Took us to the Sphinx. Must go inside. MUST.
Threw crystal and Noordhoek stone as close as possible.
Went to a perfume shop. The owner asked me if I am an American Indian (again). Was asked if I recognised the shaman in the photo. I did not. After a tete a tete, between H… and the shop owner, I was assured by H…., that he would take me inside the pyramid that afternoon. He had already asked me earlier on, if I believed in reincarnation, to which I responded ‘Absolutely’ and this is why I am in Egypt. I had also told him I am not a tourist, I am on a spiritual pilgrimage. He asked if he could come inside with us. I said of course.
At 1.00PM he had all of us walking into the pyramid. When we got to the King’s Chamber, he asked if I needed anything. I said no, I had to feel my way through what next.
Walked around and at approximately the middle of the room I arranged my crystals on the floor.
Two stones from Noordhoek
S….’ long crystal
Twin crystal from S… that belongs to both of us. Next Noordhoek stone. Next orange crystal mine and S….’s. These three in a vertical line.
B…. sat facing me after the sarcophogus.
Started chanting and making hand/arm motions.
Felt like there was no roof.
Aware that people kept on streaming into the room and just kept on lining against the walls of the room, without stepping towards the middle.
Felt the guardians come into their bodies. Felt completely surrounded by light and cushioned by love.
When I was finished I put my crystals away in my pouch and held two of them. One in each hand.
I walked to the sarcophagus, walked around it and people just got out of the way and gave me space. I stood at the feet facing the head (I think).
H…. approached me and asked if I was finished. I said yes and asked if we were late. He said that we were not late, but we had spent nearly an hour in there.
It felt like 5 minutes to me.
We walked out. First stone I saw when I stepped out of the pyramid, gave me an answer to something I had asked.
_Even though from the very beginning of the trip, I always had the desire (compulsion), to go into the pyramid, as I try to understand all that happened, the more I am convinced that this was an optional and not a part of the “have to”, of the initial plan.
The fact that I was initially refused to go into the pyramid, as definitely sent me into soul searching. I suppose really, in the pursuit of more clarity, of ‘Whom I AM’ and my part in the bigger Plan. And yes, a part of me is saying “so what, you did it and that is that”, there are other parts of me that request the clarity. I don’t think, from a place of distrust, because the bottom line of it all, whether I understand what is going on, or not, I still do what needs to be done.
But I think from a place of balance. I AM not only spirit, I am also mind, heart and body.
And in order for none of my aspects to feel neglected, I have a need, to use every aspect of myself. Maybe different aspects at different times, but nevertheless, letting some catch up to the rest, ultimately.
I also have this recognition, awareness, that the path will be travelled at a speedier pace and with fewer bumps, if this sort of balance is maintained. (Maybe I am only justifying myself??).
So let’s go back to my soul searching.
One of the questions that came up to me, on reflection, was:
“At what point to I just allow the Universe to take over and how much of that Universe, am I?”
In other words, at what point does the complete Trust and Acceptance come in and at which point does the responsibility for the creation of my reality go out? Are they one and the same? Same picture turned upside down? One, the natural growth of the other?
These are some of the questions that went through my mind.
“If I had left good enough alone, would I still have got into the pyramid?”
“If I had not got into the pyramid, would it have made any difference to the planet?”
“If it made a difference to the planet, would they have just brought the next able person, to do what needed to be done?”
“Would it have made a difference to me on a personnel level?”
“And if it had, would the Universe (me) just find another way, to accomplish the same thing?”
“If me, making a stand, is what enabled my presence into the pyramid, was that necessary for me to reaffirm my position, of wanting to do it?”
“Was this therefore the actual personal growth, challenge, taking of responsibility, which states I am the Universe?”
“Or was this, lack of Trust in the Universe, or was this Trust in myself (the Universe)?”
I have not actually arrived at any logical conclusions. This might point to the fact that I could just end up more confused.
But I don’t think so. I believe that going through all these questions (and more), enabled me to arrive at a conclusion, even though it is not what most people would consider a logical one.
I believe that there is no way that a logical decision can be made in the moment when circumstances like this arise. The only possible way is to follow ones heart, soul, and intuition. There is too much variables that one does not understand at this stage. Maybe, no, not maybe. One day when all is known, past, Present and Future all at once, in all its myriad’s of variations, than, and only than would one be able to make that kind of decision in a different way. But would one want to? Is it not that the heart is really the place to be in and therefore any decision would come from there. Is this not where we are wanting to walk towards? Run towards? Me thinks so._
Travelled to this pyramid. Seem to be very tired. Can’t even be bothered to take photos. Just enough strength to carry my crystals. Get inside the pyramid and arrange my crystals on the floor.
Twin and orange
New ones from England
Mine and S…’s from Lemuria
S….’s bigger crystal
Chanted and made hand/arm motions
Felt real difficulty to walk back to the bus.
Got to the hotel and passed out.
B… woke me up for supper. Realised how much all the crystals have changed.
Had the shakes. They were like a stone thrown in a pond. The waves/ shakes started from the inside out.
Sat with a blanket around me for over an hour, in Cairo, until the shakes were over.
[Elemental archetype left]